Something is off?

These past couple of days have been really weird for me. I've been feeling off, and I can't for the life of me figure out why.

It may be because while sitting bored at home on Facebook, I'm seeing all of the things that everyone else is doing. All their future plans, their summer trips, their relationships, and I can't help but feel a little envious.

Now, don't get me wrong. I love my life. It doesn't matter where I am, or who I'm with, or what situation I'm in because regardless of anything that's going on, I've learned to have hope. I'm trying to live with a positive outlook on everything. That's hard sometimes, but it really makes life feel a lot easier. It's just that my future is very much up in the air after student teaching. I wish I knew a little more about what I would like to do or where I would like to go after I finally get my teaching license for real!

Another reason why I'm feeling down might be because of the lack of people that I want in my life. Namely two. One moved away permanently for her job and for her future grad school, and I can't help but feel pretty darn sad when I think about how things will never be the same. I know that we will always be best friends, and that her life is going to be amazing, and I know I'm being selfish about not having her here with me, but still. It sucks. The other person... Well, that's a little tricky. I find myself constantly thinking, overthinking, trying to figure out ways to make our futures line up. I need to stop trying. I think I may have to move on. It's tough to elaborate on, but anyway.

I'm also feeling troubled about not going back to Reno in the fall. I don't know how I'll feel once school starts back up again for all of my Reno friends, because it's going to be rough knowing that I won't be going back.

This wasn't meant to be a depressing post! I am happy. I've had a weird few days. But the good thing is, this is a new week, and I have a whole future to look forward to!  :)