So I’m not sure if I’m really meant to be a blogger. I’ve tried and I’ve tried for years and years and I just don’t know if I have what it takes. It’s probably that my life isn’t interesting enough to even write about online, or maybe because I just don’t think that anyone will get anything out of reading my blog, but whatever the case, I’m going to try. Again.
It’s been a year since I’ve posted on this particular blog and I think I’m going to use just this one from now on because I like the layout so much better. I’m going to try my very hardest to keep up with this for real this time, because I like to write and I think that constantly writing will help me become a better writer. Hopefully.
But anyway. My year in one word: Messy.
I don’t know exactly how I managed to get to this point, but I’m glad to finally have made it to where I am. There have been a few ridiculous decisions made in the past year, but I have gotten past them and I am back on track. I realized that I really shouldn’t worry about others’ opinions of me. I’ve been focusing far too much of my energy on pleasing people and that’s not what I’m supposed to be doing. I am piecing my disheveled life back together again and following the path that I have been chosen to follow. It’s not like I’ve been doing drugs or selling myself on the street, but I let my priorities really change over the past year, and I’m realizing that it wasn’t exactly the best thing for me. I’m being incredibly vague and I apologize but this really is just me ranting to myself about how stupid I’ve been over the past year and I can’t believe I can count the times that I went to church in Reno in the past two semesters on one hand. That’s my main problem. But I am back now. For real!
So now that I’ve gotten my rants on my year of regretful decisions out of the way, I’ll just quickly summarize my week thus far: DENTIST.
I’m sure my posts from here on out will be a little more exciting than what I’m writing about today, but I just have to put this down so I remember it years from now and so that I will realize that taking good care of my teeth is a REALLY GREAT IDEA. Three days straight at the dentist does not a happy Nicole make. I’m fine, I survived, but my teeth have been thoroughly drilled and filled and scraped and prodded and separated and put back together and I’m so immensely grateful that it’s over with. With the exception of the parting with my wisdom teeth this coming Monday. Oy.
My summer so far has definitely been a different experience compared to summers past. I went to Germany this summer for the first time in three years, and I can’t believe how much older all of my family is. It’s weird when I don’t get to visit family much, it’s like I expected them not to age while I was away. I had a great, relaxing time and I ate very well! I also got to experience the World Cup in a way that has made me fall in love with soccer. It’s a great sport and I’m glad I got to experience it the German way. :] I also went to Amsterdam and Paris while I was overseas and my life has been forever changed. That might be somewhat of an overstatement but Amsterdam is now one of my very favorite places in the world. So beautiful, so historic, so watery. :]
Since I’ve been back I haven’t done much but spend a whole lot of time at the Coffee Bean [thanks for that, Leish] and read and watch Harry Potter nonstop. Though I haven’t really accomplished much [aside from giving my teeth 4 years' worth of dental attention] I feel incredibly at ease. This is largely because of the time I spend at church, and reading non-secular books, which has really been changing the way I think lately. I’ve been on a “self-renovation” kick and it feels good. I really ought to consider changing more things while I’m at it, starting with this blog. I think I have to have a deadline for myself when it comes to this or else I’ll never write anything, ever. So I’ll try for at least once a week, even if it’s about something stupid or just a random thought. Because, let’s face it, it’s not guaranteed that something worth writing about is going to happen to me EVERY week.
Okay, so I feel like this is a good enough start to a blog that is DEFINITELY not going to go on hiatus anymore. Promise! :]
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